The words 'come closer' do not always sound kind. If someone only calls you when they need something and then forgets about you right away, even that single phrase can wear your heart down. "Haze Chiseru Haterumade" begins with the desire to approach and the feeling of needing to distance oneself all tangled together. By the end, how one treats oneself becomes a little more important than the other person's response.
The urge to keep checking in because you want to see them
The speaker repeatedly checks in to avoid damaging the relationship while simultaneously practicing how to distance themselves. Though it may seem contradictory, these two feelings often arise together when facing someone they care about: wanting reassurance leads them to ask once more, only for fear that their question will bore the other person to cause them to pull back again.
Simple advice rarely fits this kind of repetition. If it were the sort of relationship that could simply be forgotten on command, they wouldn’t have worn themselves out getting this far. The voice in the song, which refuses easy answers and convenient possibilities, sounds like a plea not to tidy up its complexity too quickly.
What remains of words that call out and then forget
The call to come closer repeats, but it is shadowed by a distrust that it will soon be forgotten. Caught between the tenderness of the moment and the indifference that follows, the speaker keeps having to check their own worth. The more they stay in the place assigned by the other person, the narrower their heart becomes.
The recurring imagery of water and breathing here reads as a state in which it is hard to catch one's breath within the relationship. There is no need to force every scene into a single event. Following the sense that trying so hard to hold on only leads to exhaustion reveals the emotional direction even amid complex images.
A closing wish to love a different side of myself
The perspective shifts slightly in the second half. The heart that once asked what it could be to another person moves toward wanting to live its own way, even if it perfectly meets someone else's standards. In the wish to move forward simply and carefully lingers a fatigue of no longer wanting to be swept away.
The self-affirmation at the end is not directed only at a shining version of oneself; it even wants to accept the mud that has stuck on and the way things have changed from before. For this reason, the song’s conclusion feels closer to quiet recovery than to a cathartic severing of ties. It captures the moment when someone who had been striving to become meaningful to another person begins to turn their heart toward their own life.
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The title is read as “하제 하세루 하테루마데.” It is a track included on the first regular album 「潜潜話」, released on October 30, 2019.
According to the official music video announcement, the arrangement is by Nuyuri and the visuals are by Waboku. The existing article's official music video has been placed above.
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