There are times when you nod along to avoid breaking the mood, only to realize once you get home what you actually wanted to say. “Iru Koto Soudou” seems to begin from that lingering aftermath of such conversations. It captures a feeling where one wants to get along well with people but doesn’t want to keep swallowing up their own thoughts just to do so. The turmoil in the song unfolds not from some major external event, but from the internal clash between these two desires.
Gaps in the conversation filled with empty pleasantries
Even in a scene where people gather to talk, the opening carries more fatigue than comfort. The responses exchanged to keep things in sync repeat themselves, and one finds oneself calculating what kind of personality is required to fit into this setting. It seems that choosing an appropriate reaction takes center stage over actually voicing one's own thoughts.
Still, the speaker cannot easily let go of that relationship. There is a clear reluctance to lose these connections. That is why the fear of being disliked goes beyond mere timidity. The desire is to keep one's own voice alive among people they want to be with, yet doing both at once proves difficult.
Does even a trivial question require permission?
The lowered volume and the image of sinking into a green sea feel like a heart that holds its ground on the surface while retreating inward. Even if the world visible now is considered home, it does not mean everything within it can be accepted. That is why the plea to allow even small doubts feels so urgent.
In the chorus, the speaker repeatedly insists that this is not what they meant to say. There is a frustration in how words offered out of a desire for honesty end up turning into defensive remarks or an act of putting on strength. After all, if one only watches for others' reactions, even the image one wanted to project starts to feel distant. The wish to settle their mind before giving up sounds like an attempt to stop this drift.
A step already taken while waiting for resolve
In the middle, there is a moment of realizing oneself trying to tidy things up neatly again, even while thinking it would be fine to keep it simpler. Of course, making a decision doesn't instantly change habits. Still, dreams that couldn't be given up on and the other person's voice help grow one's will. The honesty this song seeks is far from an attitude of insisting that only oneself is right.
The final line shifts from a desire to steel one's resolve to the realization that such resolve had already been formed. It turns out that starting something does not require all fear to vanish first. Even while still clumsy and awkward, the will to voice one's own thoughts was already in motion. After hearing the subtle change that arrives at the end of the chorus's repetition, the title's commotion lingers like a process of reclaiming one's own voice.
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“Konna Koto Soudou” is the seventh track on the debut studio album “Sen Sen Wa,” released on October 30, 2019. The official Zutto Mayoi music video has been embedded above. As you listen to the recurring chorus, pay attention to how the final expression of resolve shifts each time; even when the same worries return, it becomes clear that the speaker’s heart is not simply staying in place.
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